{"id":17,"date":"2023-04-28T19:27:31","date_gmt":"2023-04-28T18:27:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/?p=17"},"modified":"2023-04-28T20:58:48","modified_gmt":"2023-04-28T19:58:48","slug":"whitewash-and-rust","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/?p=17","title":{"rendered":"Whitewash and Rust"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>The power grinder screeched into action, spitting orange and blue sparks and sending rust flying to<br>the gantry below.<br>&#8220;Stop!&#8221; shouted a voice, trying to sound imperative but inconspicuous at the same time. The man at<br>the grinder paid no attention, although whether he was being obstinate or simply couldn&#8217;t hear over<br>the grinder wasn&#8217;t clear. The layer of rust had shaken free, and he was now working on the more solid<br>layer of unbroken steel beneath. It was old, but it was a good build, and the grinder had slowed down<br>and stopped spitting out so many sparks.<br>&#8220;John!&#8221; came the shout, again. &#8220;Stop! Do you want them to&nbsp;know&nbsp;we&#8217;re here?&#8221;<br>This time, he heard. Clicked the grinder off, and it wound down gratefully with a whirr and a series of<br>clicks. &#8220;What are you talking about? We&#8217;ve been here for&nbsp;days. Did you see anyone on the way down<br>here?&#8221;<br>&#8220;No, but\u2026&#8221;<br>&#8220;But what, Susan? Look!&#8221;<br>He waved his hand above them towards a security camera, staring at the ground, almost forlornly,<br>clearly powered off.<br>&#8220;There&#8217;s no-one home. None of these have been active. They&#8217;ve&nbsp;gone, Sue.&#8221;<br>&#8220;There&#8217;s power,&#8221; she replied. &#8220;All this strip lighting, John &#8211; hell, your damn grinder. Who&#8217;s paying for<br>that? There&#8217;s someone still looking after this place, and I don&#8217;t want them to know we&#8217;re here.&#8221;<br>&#8220;There&#8217;s no-one looking after it,&#8221; he said, rather more confidently than he felt. &#8220;The grounds haven&#8217;t<br>been tended for years, looks like. All those ancient computers and equipment when we got in &#8211; some of<br>that stuff looked like it was from the 1960s, for God&#8217;s sake. You said it yourself &#8211; we&#8217;ve been here for<br>days. If they knew we were here, wouldn&#8217;t they have come for us by now?&#8221;<br>She didn&#8217;t really have an answer for him, and an awkward silence filled the air.<br>&#8220;Look,&#8221; he said, more to say something than nothing. &#8220;We&#8217;ve got this far. We&#8217;re&nbsp;close.&#8221; He turned<br>around before she could respond, pulled his mask down, and started the grinder with a kick. Susan<br>turned away from him to shield her eyes from the glow, but also to hide her face. A tear rolled down<br>her cheek, followed by another, descending off the walkway into the murk below. She didn&#8217;t hear them<br>hit.<br>She felt a pang of guilt, again, for abandoning her daughter. She&#8217;d let herself be convinced by everyone<br>who told her that she&#8217;d run away, that she&#8217;d found a better life outside of their tiny town, somewhere<br>more worldly than the few cross streets where everyone knew each other as intimately as family. And,<br>after a time, it had been easier to forget. To forget what a loving and generous person Claire had been,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>always wanting to help their community in any way she could. &nbsp;How she&#8217;d jumped at the chance to<br>attend clinical trials once the lab had opened up just outside of town. She was certain it&#8217;d rejuvenate<br>their industry, that they town would become a hotbed for science.<br>She&#8217;d packed her overnight bag before they could object, not that they would have. The passion for<br>this had her fiercely in its grasp, and she left with great hopes. She did so well, her letter said after the<br>first day, that she&#8217;d be staying another week for more testing, she hoped they didn&#8217;t mind, and to keep<br>her room as it was because she&#8217;d left a few things in odd places and wanted to be able to find things<br>when she got home.&nbsp;Another letter arrived after that, and again, and again, and her room stayed as it<br>was &#8211; slightly untidy, but not embarrassingly so, and enough to remind her parents that it was a place<br>lived in. And slowly, the letters had stopped coming, and it had become easier not to enter the room.<br>Susan tried to pinpoint the moment that they realised that their daughter had left them, and choked<br>as she couldn&#8217;t. It was heartbreaking to think that she had chosen to leave so deceitfully, and even<br>moreso to realise later &#8211; far too much later &#8211; that it was not the case. That she had been taken, and no<br>objection had been made. It was five years now since they raised it with the local police, and many<br>more since she left, but the labs had been derelict for years and under new management, the owner<br>nowhere to be found. Five years of red tape and shouting, and it had come to nothing.<br>Grief met panic, met outrage and action, and within a few days they had gathered their equipment and<br>broken into the lab to find any shred of evidence of Claire. It was easier than expected, even if the<br>equipment they had needed to be put to strange and creative uses, a strange hubris behind their<br>security systems that no longer kept secrets safe.<br>Two days of investigation, of climbing and tracking through a seemingly endless procession of sterile<br>rooms, corridors and machinery until finally, here, their destination. Wherever their daughter was,<br>the answer would be here, behind this door. It&nbsp;had&nbsp;to be.<br>The grinder John held sputtered and died, and he threw it down with a clang and a curse. It landed<br>next to a small pile of ruined tools, each used and abused in their attempts to make it through the<br>blast door. It still stood mercilessly above them, almost mocking in its immutability. He gave it a kick,<br>as if that would help.<br>&#8220;We&#8217;re done,&#8221; he stated, defeated.<br>&#8220;We&#8217;re&nbsp;close,&#8221; she reminded him, betrayed. &#8220;We can find her! We just have to get through!&#8221;<br>&#8220;It&#8217;s no use,&#8221; he replied. &#8220;We can&#8217;t get past this. This is military-grade, or something. Nothing I&#8217;ve got<br>gets through. All the time spent attacking this thing, and what have I got to show for it? Some<br>callouses and rust-stained boots.&#8221; He kicked the door again, for effect.<br>&#8220;We can&#8217;t give up on her, John!&#8221;<br>&#8220;We already did,&#8221; he said, turning away.<br>&#8220;And now we&#8217;re making it right!&#8221; she shouted, angry at him to hide the truth of it, to hide her anger at<br>herself. &#8220;Whatever happened to her, the answer is right there! Six feet away! We owe it to her!&#8221;<br>He looked back at her, his reddened eyes meeting hers. &#8220;I failed her, Sue,&#8221; he said, simply.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&#8220;We did,&#8221; she agreed, taking his hand. &#8220;But if we can get past this, if we can find out what happened,<br>we can fix it. We can tell the world what these&nbsp;scientists-&#8221;&nbsp;she spat &#8211; &#8220;did to our daughter.&#8221;<br>She pulled him closer, and he wrapped his arms around her, still shaking.<br>&#8220;You&#8217;re right,&#8221; he said. &#8220;We got this far. We can&#8217;t give up on her now.&#8221;<br>He bent his head, and kissed her lightly, each of them shaking in each others arms, not wanting to let<br>one another go.<br>Their shaking became a rumble, the gantry wobbled, and their embrace became a clutch, each of them<br>terrified to let each other go as rust shook down off the precipice and into the abyss below. The<br>massive, implacable doors groaned, and shifted apart, pale mist rolling from the gap and a cool breeze<br>flowing through their hair. They turned in astonishment as the sheet metal fell away, revealing a dark<br>expanse behind, a hallway lined with glass tubes, as high and as far as they eye could see, each filled<br>with a murky liquid and covered in grey condensation.<br>Behind them, the security camera span into life, rotating to focus on them, the red status light on its<br>shell blinking into activity.<br>&#8220;Oh,&#8221; said a female voice, disembodied, cold and clipped.<br>&#8220;Hello.&#8221;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The power grinder screeched into action, spitting orange and blue sparks and sending rust flying to<br \/>\nthe gantry below.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":72,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-general"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=17"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":50,"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17\/revisions\/50"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/72"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=17"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=17"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/continueorquit.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=17"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}